It's a job, it's not a career. That is something that I have to remind myself. I have been at my "temporary" job for almost 3 months. I'm starting to not feel like "the new girl" anymore. (Luckily, we've gotten 2 new girls, so at least they don't call me that anymore).
So, what I am doing: I work for this company (Lisa's Cleaning Service, LLC), and we clean up and prepare new homes from the construction phase to being ready for the homeowner walk-through. May I just say- if these people paying $500,000+ for new houses knew what they looked like before we clean them up.... (maybe I will take some before/after photos for your benefit).
It is a physically demanding job, I am sore and tired a lot. It is also very emotionally demanding. Most of the women that I work with are 40+ and think of me as just some kid. Most of them have only a HS level of education (and a few don't even have that), which is an adjustment after working with all college/graduate students for 4 years. I had forgotten that not everyone is educated to the same level as the people I had come to know as my peers.
Why am I doing this? Well, I ask myself everyday. The most obvious answer is $$. I need a steady income to stay on top of the bills I have to pay.... I also needed something to do, I was going crazy not working for 2 months.
But what am I getting out of it?? God is really teaching me a lot. I am learning about patience- for my life, His plan, and the people He loves. I am learning about loving others unconditionally. I am learning about judgement and pride- both things I was quick to come to without even realizing it. And I am learning about grace. What it means to live in it and extend it to those around me.
I don't know what my future holds- i still want to be working in higher ed, or recreation, I want to live on my own, I want my old life back sometimes... but I have to remember that God has me in this time for a reason, and when I transition to the next thing I hope that I will be a changed person, and even more thankful for the things he has placed in my life.
